HardEsT ThiNgs iN LiFe

Now should be my most relaxed period coz I am having my holidays but I dont find it enjoyable. I am like the fish in the fish-tank, always at home most of the time, doing nothing... Haiz... Hope to find a temp. job but nowadays, it is so difficult to find a 1-mth job. Think I am going to rot soon...

"Trying to forget someone you love is trying to remember someone you never know."
I guess it is realli difficult to forget a person we once loved, but why do we wanna forget the person? No matter if the person is good or bad, to us, we can juz hide them in a corner of our heart... Coz they used to be special in some ways that made us loved them. He/She makes a part of our memories, that make our memories worthwhile. We learnt from mistakes that made us strong and brave. Memories made us realised how well we can get through with the toughest situations faced. Having memories of someone that had hurt us, doesnt make us a loser.

"One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter. I do not regret the things that I have done, but those that I did not do."
We always had so much to say to someone but always cant find the courage to say it out. Sometimes, if we missed the chance of saying what we should or wanna say, we might not have the second chance... The words may not mean much to others but it may weighs a million tonnes in your heart. So once U din say it out, U may have to carry it for a long distance before U can put it down, and move on... So if U love someone, say it out... if U care for someone, show it... It doesnt cost you anything.

But people always have to wait till they lost it then they will realise importance of something or someone...Like we always say: " The thing that we couldn't get is always the best." How true it is? Prehaps the best of the best is always beside us, is juz that we didnt realise or treasure.

MemoRieS

Hmmm...exams over, ending all my stressful days. Feel so happy... Can relax at last, but oso feel scare that i might not be able to make it.

--- From Jolin's Song

Sometimes, we realli dunno what we want till we lost them, but we will not want to get them back after we lost it years after. And even if the things come back to us, we may not want them anymore. People & Feelings will change. But whenever we think about the past or the person, there is still some feelings elicit... It is not the feelings of love but abit sour, bitter, dry... i realli dunno what kind of feelings is that, maybe U can tell me...

There are memories of happy moments and oso sad moments, so we realli dunno to be happy or sad whenever we reminisce... But i feel that it is good to have memories, this is what life is about. Though with memories, remind us of the sadness & pain we had in the past...

Without memories, we cant recollect the things happened and feel happy, even after so long, but oso feeling sad after learning that it was in the past...

We always have too much mixed feelings that lead us to "dunno which direction to go or wat to do". We all hope that our decision will be the right and best one but how often it is...