Wednesday, June 17, 2015

Wat doesn't kill u make U stronger

Past 2-3 weeks was amazing hard to pass the days of my book-eating S2. Having to take public transport, going back to home alone, eating dinner alone, plus brain cells killing in process. I felt like going into depression mode soon. This isn't easy if u need to shut yourself in to concentrate and study after work... No tv, no dramas, no music, no meetup, no drinking session, no family at home. But I survived and being stronger, more independent and dauntless. Though not easy to come by, for guarding against ckp in public transport, being a squeezer and kenna squeezed, and cracking brain of wth to eat alone, is finally over! 
...but i think i am quite determined to learn driving now. 😁

Still, no regrets in this ACCA path, i need the knowledge for my credit analysis work. 😍 and also not wasting tis life that God has granted me. Be accountable to your life, love me self, then u will know how to love others effectively. 

Another random memories came by today... i got to understand n know the reasons why i didnt want to have kid unless i can be SAHM... why i wanted so badly to take care of my own kid myslf so that i can ensure they get the most of my love n care, other than my hubby, of coz.
Coz i used to resent my mum for leaving me home alone, for she needed to go work. i juz felt that she loved to go out and not wanting to be home wif me. 🙊 Though I can't cfm if the former was true to some extent. 😁