AniMaLs LuV

This is to my Beloved "Yi4 Li4 Qiu2" (My Hamster)

I am really not a good care-giver, i realli loved and cared for her but guessed i didnt expressed well enough. She is like her name, looks like a white ball, even when she is sleeping... Although she was with me oni for a short while, i realli feel the pinch when she is gone.. today... I didnt play much with her coz i scared to hold her, I didnt take good care of her coz i too busy with my stuffs, I havnt had enough of her and she is gone... I realli regret! This is human, always have to wait till we lost somethings, then we start to groan about it. Or mayb tht's me oni.. Haiz...

Having a quite weird feeling, abit sad, lost, lifeless, remorse, gulity, etc... It seems like somehow or in a way, i killed a life. Life is so fragile, esp for animals, they realli need alot of care and attention. I dun think i wanna rear dog le (used to dream of having a xiaobai), after this incident, i know that i cant take good care of animals, when i havnt even learn to take good care of myself. And it is realli hard to overcome the lost of them, you may think that it's just a animal/hamster, but it's a small life, tht leaves a footprint in my life.

Dont rear an animal if you are not ready to put in all the love, care and attention they need. Dont let them suffer, and adds to your sins. I can tell you it is not a good feeling.